How do you picture yourself?
Take a few minutes to picture yourself as the person you most want to be. I'm not talking about a celebrity or unrealistic version of you, but something that's possible.
- What do you look like?
- What are your values?
- What's your career?
- What are your hobbies?
- What do other people think about you?
Are you this person now? My guess is probably not, at least not entirely. I know for myself that I am far from the person I wish to be.
- I want to be thinner, and more active. I want pale, clear and soft skin. I want a better haircut and manicured nails. I want better clothes.
- I want to be vegan, to let my love for animals shine through in everything that I do. I want to be more Eco-friendly and loving and generous towards everyone and everything.
- I want to be a professional writer and photographer.
- I want to do yoga, meditation, go jogging. I want to spend my days taking and editing pictures, to write and network with other great writers.
- I want people to find me inspiring and motivating. I want them to look at me and think "Wow, she is such a happy, loving and patient person."
And you know what? I'm not really any of those things right now.
I spent years being depressed and wondering why life had to be so hard, why I never seemed to get anything I truly wanted. And I was angry, impatient and fed up.
I didn't like myself back then. And slowly (very slowly) I started to pull myself up out of that awful place and started making changes towards the person I want to be, the person I described.
Like I said, I'm currently not that person but I'm so much closer than I was a year ago or even just six months ago.
It's through little changes you make throughout the day.
When I feel myself to start dipping into that all too familiar dark and gloomy place deep in my mind, I recognize the thought pattern and pull myself out before it gets worse. I think of something that makes me happy.
I've started eating more vegetarian and vegan foods and cooking at home more often. I walk every day and can feel my body getting stronger. I've been trying to put more effort into the way I look. I force myself to be patient by breathing in deep whenever I feel those impatient bubbles start to come up. Most importantly, I make myself think positively and feel grateful, especially when my pessimistic mind tries to take over.
The best way to notice these bad habits in order to change them is by thinking about the type of person you want to be. If the person you want to be is more patient than you are now, and you think about it and admit it to yourself, you're going to start noticing when you're impatient and try to change it. But if you don't think about it, or admit it, you're just going to continue to be an impatient person.
It can be a slow process. I can accept that it's a slow process to completely change my life. I think you have to if you really want to make lasting changes.
So, no, I am not the person I want to be. I'm not the person I have envisioned in my mind, but now that I have admitted this I can start working towards it.
How do you picture yourself? Are you this person now or are you still working towards it?